Perseverance..

I have written 3 blogs and deleted them..
So this is a fresh start again.

Today I woke up with a discouraged mentality. It stinks. Really does.
I think that is an old mentality I need to deal with. Shutting the door to it and opening the door to Hope, Joy and rejoice. No wonder the Lord says renew your mind.

I remember when I was going to Morningstar Ministries for school. I faced so many hardships it seemed that all was against me and maybe I had made a wrong choice to go to ministry school. My mom quit her job, got my car almost totaled, had to give up my saved money for school. Even my father didn't approve of me going off to school. I would cry and felt desperate. God would encourage me with still small words. Even at at church the message was about Paul called to go to an Island of Patmos and while he was on his way there was crash and they tried to even kill him when he got to the Island. Well I knew I had to move forward. I would read Psalm 23 and Read John 11" If you would only believe, you would see my glory."
Well God used people to help me go to ministry school. I never persuaded people to help me. Even a local business man helped me with $300 for ministry school. My friend Mashyell lend me her car to go to school. And Pastor Gary gave me 250 for school and even my father would help me when I really needed it. Money would just come through for me.
I even remember doubting fiercely on my way and crying even getting lost. I was so tired, I drove all night only rested two hours. I would think what am I doing? Away from my family, to a place I didnt know anyone at all. Looking back it was really a big test. And really a stepping stone. So just because things get messy and seem completely impossible, your biggest Victory might be ahead of you. There is not one battle God does not empower you to be triumphant. All things are possible to Him that believes.

Abraham was tested 10 times before his promise came to pass. It really was impossible for me to leave to Morningstar. I thought so many times it would never happen, but somehow God encouraged me and led me to place of the biggest joy. Its easy to get discouraged, but Lord give us a sign of your favor. Let me know your promise will come to pass.

Endurance..

Good morning!!

So I managed to get up and go run with Diana. Again, here I am inspired to write. We'll see how long this lasts...:)

 I usually do 2 laps around the lake one walking and one running. No knee pain which is great! I felt like quitting way before getting to my focused finished line. I could push my body and I just wanted to fast forward to the goal of my sight. I felt anxious to get to the line soon or just stop and walk. But i managed to continue, relax and focus on pushing myself to get to the finish line. I put music on that will edify my spirit that wont let me think about defeat.

 Continuing my race I began to think how many times life gets a little hard to run and all you wanna do is quit and settle for a comfortable pace. Maybe relaxing a bit, but not fully giving it your best shot. Or maybe that prize you been running towards seems so far away yet so near. But your soul becomes anxious and frustrated that it seems so far at perspective. But if you dish off the anxiety and rest in your soul, relying on the One who strengthens your knees and makes your feet like gazelle you begin to run with "endurance." It takes endurance and patience to inherit the promises.
 Do not settle for less then the best. I want to be considered those who push with all they have to receive what the Lord has promised. He promises healing and restoration, that belongs to me.  I used to read Psalm 68 :4-5," Sing unto God, sing praises to His name, cast up a highway for Him Who rides through the desserts-His name is the Lord-be in high spirits and glory before him. A father to the fatherless and a judge and protector of the widows is God in His holy habitation." I would ask myself what does praise have to do with orphans and widows? You might ask yourself what does this verse have to do with endurance or race?
       Only the fact that we act like we are all alone in the race of life when it gets hard. Jesus said I will always be with you, I will never leave you nor forsake you. We forget the Fathers unconditional Love for us, we feel fatherless. It is the will of the Father to give you good gifts to His children. It is He who's eye is on the sparrow. Be anxious for nothing. Selah(meditate on this). This causes me to bring Praise out of my mouth and give Glory to my Father in heaven. He is so Glorious. He is always Father, I receive the spirit of adoption.
  So Lord Surprise us with your goodness and loving kindness. Just because that s who you are..I could never measure up to be worthy but you Love me anyway with all my weakness and failures. You call me lovely, yes you do, you see me as worthy to die for. I find rest in you.

The tongue of a ready writer.

I love to be creative and I think along the day I pick on ideas or values that I wouldnt like to forget. I d like to share my insights, mostly for my record.
We go out through life learning, not seeing the entire picture but the little water I drink I do want share.

Im happy to have the day off tomorrow. Yuppi!!!
Sprint Corporation sold us to a perferred dealer named NexGeneration. It is owned by some nice Louisiana folk. Ironically, all the people that came down are French. No wonder I kept dreaming about the FLeur lilie. I havent been able to go French lately. I miss my French and Flamenco classes. One I tap away in Flamenco, realeasing my feelings. Other I want to say other then Vous c'est parle Fancais? Non...non..non.. jajjaaa..
Y si estoy aburrida en el trabajo.
Amongst other things one of my prayers Sunday was that the Lord open His hand of provision. This morning while I headed out towards my morning run I heard my prayer spoken on the radio. "The Lord opens Hand of provision to meet your needs." The Lord is never late, He is always on time. He might just not go when you want Him to but He knows you are needy and weak.
I love the story in John 11. Mary and Martha are looking for Jesus because Lazarus their brother is dead, yet Jesus waits 4 days to go raise Lazarus. He loved Lazarus yet He would recieve a greater glory by showing up when all seemed more then hopeless. Those who wait upon the Lord shall never be put to shame.(Psalm25)
 Maybe that situation you have been waiting to shift, might be a couple of days away.